Be strong for yourself.

It’s not that you lacked effort in making things work. Or that you did not communicate what you would have wanted to get from the situation. Or that you did not tell him exactly how you were and how to handle you. Face it. You wished for someone who would fight for you as much as you’ve openly fought for him. Someone who would choose to make sacrifices as much as you’ve had to do.

In the end, he knows it. He knows full well what his options are… what possibilities exist and how much your relationship costs. He is aware that he could keep you happy without leaving your side. And yet he let things drift away exactly because of that. He knows. What he’s doing, what he is giving up, what he wants to avoid.Face it. Do not shed tears that cry out “what if?”. For it was your choice— and his too.

Simply, this time, you are not going to be asking for hope. You are going to let him decide the fate of your relationship without begging. You won’t be forcing him to be someone he’s not. You won’t let him cause you any hurt or unhappiness. If he would have wanted to stay, he’d say it himself. Face it.

It does not necessarily follow that his feelings for you weren’t real. They were there. It is not right to question them. He just did not want you miserable. But those remaining feelings which trickled down with time are obviously not enough to be fought for. Face it. Stick with your decision and withhold chances when there are already too many.

Face your own faults. Face the consequences of decisions made. Face it that he simply thought the same way. Face the fact that you lost him forever. 

Now, you are able to mourn for your loss. But are able to rise up again without regret, keeping your head high, for you have loved.

AJT